October 19-21

So here I was, alone in a birthing room with a scary IV drip, monitors hooked up all on me and time... I wanted, no needed answers about what was going on, what caused this, what's next and what are our options.

The head of the NICU came to see me and explained what would happen to the babies if they were delivered within the next week. Expected NICU time would be necessary, however, he felt that their weights were pretty good and therefore wasn't concerned. Plus with the steroid shots he said their lungs would be fine too. There's more details he went into but the gist was that the babies would not come home with us. This terrified me.

I got visits from the people I love the most and love me: N (of course!), mom, dad, A and Rocky. These people were so vital in keeping me sane. Each one of them constantly made sure I was taken care of and would bring me treats. Also, geefunk kept me company all the time. It was great to be in constant contact with her. She helped me get through some of the most difficult times.

After day two (Oct. 21) we were moved to another room, extended care. It was a waiting game at this point and all meds were removed. Was allowed to shower and go to the restroom on my own. This alone made me feel good and relieved. I had high hopes that I'd be able to carry the twins for at least another week...

It begins...

Monday, 1:45am I woke up to pee and thought boy I must be hot since I felt wet all over. Turns out not all over only bottom. Proceeded to the restroom where I did my business but when I stood up I continued to leak. Um this is not right. Then the vomiting began... Yeah, I knew instantly this was a sign of labor.

I got ready as quiet as possible and woke up N just before I left to let him know I was headed to L&D and not to worry. He needed to be at work in 3 hours and I honestly thought nothing serious of the situation...

Once I arrived at L&D they placed me in a birthing room and hooked me up to monitors and such. Was looked at by Dr. N and she confirmed it was amniotic fluid and quickly did an ultrasound. Both babies were showing no signs of distress, only little black spots in their space that represented lack of fluid.

The nurse gave me a shot of steroids for the babies' lungs in case I delivered later that day. They told me there would be a second round 24 hours later and I asked if I should come in the same time... the nurse practically had a seizure she was laughing so hard. She said that's it I'm here till I deliver those babies...

Babies are here!

I'll post official later, no time now.

We're all doing great. Babies need a few weeks in the NICU but they're doing awesome already!

Baby A Girl - 3 lbs 14.5 oz and 17 inches
Baby B Boy - 4 lbs 11 oz and 17 inches

8 more weeks

Eek! How time has flown by, I know everyone says that but it really has. We've doubled within the week as evidenced below. Guess this means I'm doing a good job, and that's all that really matters. I'm finally starting to feel the effects of the weight though. It all kicked in this week. Went for a walk yesterday and my pelvic bones did a number on me last night. Also, I've been officially banned from xfit, :'(. Walking is all we're left with.

We finally cleared out the babies' room and have their crib set up! Everytime I pass by the room I get goosebumps. Then there was that almost mini freak out I had today at a baby basics class... Good thing I don't like to cry in public. We're now waiting for our completion coupons in order to finish up all our shopping then all we have to do is wait...

Black and gray are my new colors.

31 weeks!

- Started childbirth classes
- Crib is up for sharing
- Baby shower is this Saturday
- Got one name down...
- Lots and lots of kicks and punches from both of you!
- Getting harder and harder to eat and exercise
- Miffy has been licking my belly whenever she gets a chance

Late Twenties

We’re in the last of our twenties kids. Time has really flown by even on the weeks I thought I wasn’t going to get through. Although, relatively speaking I have had a pretty easy pregnancy thus far. No ER or doctor’s office visits other than our routine ones. Sure nausea was unpleasant but reassuring in a sick sort of way. I learned to eat before I even brushed my teeth in order to avoid that vicious vile attack and tried to maintain you two happy with food. Alas, your little growth spurts still bring this on but I’ll take it as long as you two don’t decide to grow into 10 pound babies each.

In our first 20 weeks together I think I may have altered both of you forever, and possibly transferred my short temper into your little blood streams. Really, I can’t imagine a child as grouchy as I was let alone two. Please baby Jesus help us. You each have your own little personalities too. I know what gets you pumping and what makes you happy. CrossFit and walking make you happy, spicy food and jogging not so much.

You are both so very active, even from the very beginning ultrasounds I could see all four limbs moving about like crazy. Hell, one of you would kick the other in the head one week and reverse the next. Sibling rivalry at its best. Sometimes I wonder how you’ll be together as children, teenagers, adults… Then I’m reassured you’ll both love each other more than anyone else ever. This or both your father and I will make you…

I’m so excited we’re in the throes of our seventh month together. Even more that we’re heading up to the majors, the 30’s. People ask if I can’t wait till you’re born and when my response is yes, yes I can and want you two in my belly as long as possible I get blank stares in return. For one, I know where you two are at, at all times. Second, you need to grow some more! I may be carrying around the equivalent of a full term baby but there are two of you and you’re only half baked, hehehe. Third, I don’t want to share you. Yes I said it. I love that I’m the only one that gets to love you and feel you and take care of you. I love that you depend on me and solely me. I love feeling all your little kicks and punches all the time now. I love that nothing can happen to you as long as I’m here to protect you. The next eleven or so weeks will be full of ups and downs I’m sure of it.

I’m so blessed to have you two in my ever expanding belly, two babies, two lives, two loves.

tired

That is all I can say for myself. I know I'm doing too much but like a crack addict can't stop myself! My feet. MY FEET! Oh poor little long feet what have I done to you? You could grill some mean steaks on them they're so damn hot. Ugh, and they're swollen. ::sobs::

To add to it all,I've been window shopping on the internets and found some fabrics I love for baby quilts. Yeah I know, like I don't have enough going on I'm planning on sewing the babies bedding... read that as I'm having my mom sew the bedding but don't tell her that as she's still unaware of it...